24th Lesson
Alone and Vulnerable. Some people prefer ongoing solitude, but that does not mean they are anti-social. There are also those who also live isolated from society, but only in a social sense
as they may live in a community they cannot relate to. So being alone can mean more than one thing. Some prefer no contact with humanity at all. They are 'at one' with nature, and they appear
content to remain that way. Some live as family units in very remote places which can be very demanding, and even dangerous at times. Then there are those who live in small groups, purely because
they just do not like to feel crowded. Finally, there are those who live partly in isolation, but with limited contact with a local community.
All of these types of people realise the value of having the time to meditate, to reflect, to contemplate the meaning of their existence. Whatever their reason for the lifestyle they chose,
be it a social outcast, or just because of cultural differences, all are aware of their vulnerability.
The irony is that you can feel the loneliest when among others. Unless you are gregarious, even to the smallest degree, you can be in a situation where you are surrounded by many others, but
somehow feel you are invisible to them - just like a ghost. It's not a nice feeling, obviously. But it is one you can experience if you feel insecure, unloved or unappreciated, not understood, etc.
Have you ever felt that way? I have on a few occasions. On my part, it's just the tiredness of a daily routine, or established social rituals. You feel the need to escape, but can only do so in
your head, but not from the environment in which you may feel trapped.
So beware of loneliness. It can be fatal if you allow it to take too strong a hold on your personality. Of course, you could go and see a 'shrink', but they will measure your worth based upon
accepted social norms. And even if they understand your issues, their solutions can either be worthless, demeaning, or just not right for you as a person. The only real solution to feeling alone
is to have a change of scenery, or a change of lifestyle (for example, a change of job, location, or anything else which can radically alter your life). Whatever the solution to any dissatisfaction
with your life, first take a break and go on vacation somewhere. Perhaps a place you always wanted to visit, but never got the chance due to reluctance, or varying circumstances. Then you will be
able to relax, to reignite your personality. It's up to you to decide what you need to 'get going again'. With luck, you will find the key to unlock your current restrictive and depressing state
of mind and find some peace of mind.